The reinvention of me

Sometimes the greatest act of self love we can do for ourselves is to let go of things that hurt or do not allow us to grow and become the people we were meant to be. Yes, it can be soooooo painful but we can only do and control so much. We CAN'T control the actions of others, we CAN'T force feelings, and we CAN'T prevent situations that occur because that is the way life is. We can only do our best in everything we do and try. Eventually, there comes a point though when you have to make the conscious choice to let go of something. Do it!!! You will be ok. Fact: It doesn't come without pain because most of the time you simply aren't ready to do it. You do not realize that holding on causes wayyyy more pain than actually letting go. Your mind is saying one thing, while the heart is saying something completely different but eventually they come together and rationalize the situation. No one knows what is best for you, well except YOU!!!!!!! When yo...

I began my 🅧 No M&M Challenge during the month of May and it has been tough! Today is Day 15 and I am not liking this. I am grumpy, moody, agitated, annoyed, and irritated! I am sure I am having night sweats too. This is worse than PMS!!!!  M&M's became my comfort snack. My Go-To for everything. Feeling happy? Eat M&M's! Feeling sad? Eat M&M's! Feeling excited? Eat M&M's! Feeling Heartbroken? Bring on the M&M's!!! I was known for always having a bag at arms reach often switching between the peanut and almond varieties. I remember the last time  I gave up something I really liked. It was HARD... Now, I am pretty into my likes and rarely I gave up anything since I am a creature of habit and like what I like. Well one day I decided to test myself and give up Coke. This was a few years ago when I drank way too much Coke. I loved Coke! Going to see a movie with a large Coke to accompany my buttery popcorn was a must!! A Coke with my burge...

Today is my Birthday Eve, yeah.... you read correctly. It's my birthday Eve. I love birthdays. I love MY birthday. One of the good things about having a birthday at the end of the month is that you really get to celebrate all month long. I love to celebrate, I love to party. 2019 hasn't really been much of a party. It hasn't been the kindest year either.  Early in the year I doubted myself.  I have decided that starting tomorrow I am forgetting about 2019 and kicking of the YEAR of ME! That's right! Adios 2019! The Year of Lucero is about to kick off.  I am ready to experience 365 days of awesomeness. I am ready to start the YEAR of ME with a new mindset, new dreams, new goals, and new attitude. I refuse to settle or let anyone make me think I am not worthy or deserving. I am like guacamole, EXTRA but worth it! Unfortunately some won't know your value but as long as you know it then it's their loss. It is important that we know the difference between what we ...

I have seen people post about BucketList items. I love seeing what people want to do at some point in their lives. In late 2016 maybe early 2017, I made a 40X40 list. This list is made up of things I want to accomplish, experience, and/or do by the time I turn 40. Some of the things on the list are crazy, adventurous, and unrealistic while others are more simple and easier to knock of the list.  One of the items on my list was to write myself a letter. I have been avoiding this for some time. I mean how could I write myself a letter. My life is chaos. My life is still adjusting to change. My life still has so many unknowns. Well, today I finally wrote that letter to myself. I realized there would never be a perfect moment to do it. In order to reinvent myself I had to do this. I had to have a heart to heart and speak to myself. In that letter I wrote about some of the difficult things I have experienced in my adult life. We all have those happy moments, we have those sad moments...

There have been many changes in my life in the past 15 months. I would have never imagined some of these changes, but humans need change sometimes. It's not always bad and it's not always good. Yet at times we need to change and reinvent ourselves. We need to evolve. Well, at the tender age of 37 I am evolving. I had changes in several relationships this past year, some important others not so much. I learned so much about the people I had let into my life but most importantly I learned and continue to learn a lot about myself. A few days ago I realized that I was holding on to so much baggage. This baggage has been dragging me down emotionally, psychologically, and mentally. I made the decision to reinvent myself. If I want to offer others the best version of me I have to work on myself first. I started reading a book by Rachel Hollis Girl, Wash your Face .  I was quickly moved by what I read. I felt like the author was really speaking to me. When I read "Yo...