The reinvention of me

I have seen people post about BucketList items. I love seeing what people want to do at some point in their lives. In late 2016 maybe early 2017, I made a 40X40 list. This list is made up of things I want to accomplish, experience, and/or do by the time I turn 40. Some of the things on the list are crazy, adventurous, and unrealistic while others are more simple and easier to knock of the list.  One of the items on my list was to write myself a letter. I have been avoiding this for some time. I mean how could I write myself a letter. My life is chaos. My life is still adjusting to change. My life still has so many unknowns. Well, today I finally wrote that letter to myself. I realized there would never be a perfect moment to do it. In order to reinvent myself I had to do this. I had to have a heart to heart and speak to myself. In that letter I wrote about some of the difficult things I have experienced in my adult life. We all have those happy moments, we have those sad moments...

There have been many changes in my life in the past 15 months. I would have never imagined some of these changes, but humans need change sometimes. It's not always bad and it's not always good. Yet at times we need to change and reinvent ourselves. We need to evolve. Well, at the tender age of 37 I am evolving. I had changes in several relationships this past year, some important others not so much. I learned so much about the people I had let into my life but most importantly I learned and continue to learn a lot about myself. A few days ago I realized that I was holding on to so much baggage. This baggage has been dragging me down emotionally, psychologically, and mentally. I made the decision to reinvent myself. If I want to offer others the best version of me I have to work on myself first. I started reading a book by Rachel Hollis Girl, Wash your Face .  I was quickly moved by what I read. I felt like the author was really speaking to me. When I read "Yo...