The Letter
I have seen people post about BucketList items. I love seeing what people want to do at some point in their lives. In late 2016 maybe early 2017, I made a 40X40 list. This list is made up of things I want to accomplish, experience, and/or do by the time I turn 40. Some of the things on the list are crazy, adventurous, and unrealistic while others are more simple and easier to knock of the list.
One of the items on my list was to write myself a letter. I have been avoiding this for some time. I mean how could I write myself a letter. My life is chaos. My life is still adjusting to change. My life still has so many unknowns. Well, today I finally wrote that letter to myself. I realized there would never be a perfect moment to do it. In order to reinvent myself I had to do this. I had to have a heart to heart and speak to myself. In that letter I wrote about some of the difficult things I have experienced in my adult life. We all have those happy moments, we have those sad moments, we have joy, disappointments, heartbreak, and moments where we question everything. All experiences in our lives shape us. Some shape our lives in great positive ways while others make us insecure and cautious. They make us second guess people and their intentions. Experiences can be freeing but they can also be manipulating. I am trying hard not to let my experiences change me, my personality, my heart, and everything that makes me ME. That is wayyyyyyyy easier said than done.
In my letter, I gave myself advice. I told myself some of the things that I hoped for me for tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, for my lifetime. In my letter, I also pushed myself to be the best version of me that I can be. I reminded myself to be strong and not to let others actions change me. I told myself that instead of feeling lonely at times when others were not around that instead I should just embrace the quite in my life. I reminded myself that those that value me and truly love me will always be there. I reminded myself that change can be beautiful. I remind myself to continue being strong, to not stop loving, and never ever stop caring. Life is not easy. Life can be cruel. Life has ups and downs and is full of twists and turns. I won't deny that I cried a little as I wrote this letter to myself. It was not as easy as I had imagined.
I haven't decided when I will read my letter to myself. I have thought about reading it often so that it can be a reminder of what I want for myself but am thinking it may be a better idea to read it later so that I can give myself an update on how I am doing. I really hope that by that time I am the right path to being the best me. I figure I have gotten this far. When was the last time you wrote yourself a letter?
One of the items on my list was to write myself a letter. I have been avoiding this for some time. I mean how could I write myself a letter. My life is chaos. My life is still adjusting to change. My life still has so many unknowns. Well, today I finally wrote that letter to myself. I realized there would never be a perfect moment to do it. In order to reinvent myself I had to do this. I had to have a heart to heart and speak to myself. In that letter I wrote about some of the difficult things I have experienced in my adult life. We all have those happy moments, we have those sad moments, we have joy, disappointments, heartbreak, and moments where we question everything. All experiences in our lives shape us. Some shape our lives in great positive ways while others make us insecure and cautious. They make us second guess people and their intentions. Experiences can be freeing but they can also be manipulating. I am trying hard not to let my experiences change me, my personality, my heart, and everything that makes me ME. That is wayyyyyyyy easier said than done.
In my letter, I gave myself advice. I told myself some of the things that I hoped for me for tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, for my lifetime. In my letter, I also pushed myself to be the best version of me that I can be. I reminded myself to be strong and not to let others actions change me. I told myself that instead of feeling lonely at times when others were not around that instead I should just embrace the quite in my life. I reminded myself that those that value me and truly love me will always be there. I reminded myself that change can be beautiful. I remind myself to continue being strong, to not stop loving, and never ever stop caring. Life is not easy. Life can be cruel. Life has ups and downs and is full of twists and turns. I won't deny that I cried a little as I wrote this letter to myself. It was not as easy as I had imagined.
I haven't decided when I will read my letter to myself. I have thought about reading it often so that it can be a reminder of what I want for myself but am thinking it may be a better idea to read it later so that I can give myself an update on how I am doing. I really hope that by that time I am the right path to being the best me. I figure I have gotten this far. When was the last time you wrote yourself a letter?
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